I've had a crazy insight of what my life could be in a few years- horrible.
I have so much guilt inside me. It's like lodged in me!
I know it's just a science fiction thing but Yoda says, "Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering."
I really believe that. And since i watched the movie, i've been fearing and angry and hating people more and more. It seriously has to end.
In the next couple days, im gonna be facing people who i wouldnt necessarily face and just letting out all this guilt. There are specific people whom i must say sorry to. And if there's one thing i know about me: I hate apologising with actual meaning. I've done it a couple times i think but it always ended up with tears. I think that's mainly for the serious cases of my problems.
These people might think im incredibly mad (Crazy) or just piss the hell laughing (which would be good cause then i wouldnt cry) but i seriously need to let it all out.
I'm over all this whinging and swearing. I hate it.
Oh btw, i'll be starting a new blog once this all happens.
Suckers! You'll all have to remember a new blog url!
Haha.
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